N° 19 Maximum Haze

English only today...came to my mind in English. 😔

Maximum Haze

 

Wouldn’t it be nice: being able to live up to proverbs just like that….? Oh yes it would: simply turn the switch and it starts on its own, - no need to think about it, no need for self-discipline, nothing to figure out, nothing to bother or question. No waste of time with try and error. Everything would be alright then. Or wouldn’t it....?

 

Be what you are. J Oh yeah!

 

Well, but who exactly am I? What’s the best thing for me to do? Is what I want to be also a part of myself? Can I decide who and what I am...at all times?

 

There is a little something which always was...“me”(?). From my first memories up until now this “pattern” has always been the same.

 

But things around this pattern have developed since. Some got attached to it (the pattern) and became consistent, some changed and are changing. There’s the core-pattern and there are concentric circles around the core, spreading to...where? Where are the borders or limits of what I should be while I’m trying to be what I am??

 

Maybe, to be what you are but not causing too much harm or discomfort to others and the world in general does the trick.

 

Maybe it’s the best thing to just “do”, to get on with...well, whatever...

 

Still, - there’s a tag to this proverb. It’s the gap, the little significant, hazy void between myself and my wishes which matters most... Right?

 

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